Six years ago I had a holistic healthcare practitioner who was doing a lymph drainage on me tell me the only thing I was lacking in my life was someone to “husband my energy”. I asked her what she meant by that and she said women tend to have fluctuating emotions far greater than men. She said yes, men feel! Yes, men have mood swings but women display their moods with their ups and downs much more than most men do. She went on to say that when a woman is in a relationship a man tends to husband her energy or keep her moods in steady alignment.
Soon after this I got into a long-term relationship. I didn’t feel that my energy was being husband-ed. In fact, I don’t think anyone should need to rely upon another person to steady their energy. I now know that the lessons I learned from that experience caused me to learn to “husband my own energy”. I think it’s safe to say that no woman will ever have her energy husband-ed 100% of the time {What pressure to place upon a mans shoulders}!
I feel that there is a lot of guilt and shame placed on women after the age of 30 who are single. “When are you having children? Don’t you want to be married”? I would love to {be open to fully} having a child and of course I would love to be married. And yes, I have been engaged to be married three times and held two long-term relationships one that lasted over a decade.It has taken me many years to create a life where I don’t have to depend on a man to husband my energy or to pay my bills.
Right now I am just enjoying life. I’m enjoying my animals. I’m enjoying my healthy food, my yoga practice and my newly discovered meditation. I’m enjoying long hikes in fresh air. I’m enjoying sunsets at the beach. I’m Enjoying my beautiful home filled with crystals, salt lamps and healthy devices that I purchased for myself! I’m enjoying the trips to see my family and my daily FaceTime with my mom and on occasion my sisters. I’m enjoying lunch at vegan restaurants that I’ve never explored with friends who love me for my big heart ♥️
I’m enjoying growing a second business that is proving to me that I can do things that I was once told “you will never do alone”. I’m enjoying my morning spiritual practice that makes me feel even more centered, more calm and so close to God that I couldn’t imagine skipping it for anything else.
If a beautiful man with a beautiful open honest heart who is loving and loyal enters my life I will not only be ready...I will be able to “wife his energy” because I have learned to husband my own.
I love you ~ please love ~ yourself
